So, there's

this guy that I like. I don't know what to do. I'm scared. What if I tell him and he only wants to be friends? What if he laughs? When I talk to him, I feel sane, happy, nervous and a bunch of other things. I wish I had the courage to tell you how I feel.

So, its been

awhile.
I have so much to say. But, I wont say anythign really. I made this really big mistake which I hate so much. There isn't anything I can do about it. I tried, but it's like beating a dead horse. Can't do anything about it. I'm just going to have to sit around and wait to see what she's going to do. I'm really hoping that ashley can find it in heart to forgive me for what i've done to her.