So, there's

this guy that I like. I don't know what to do. I'm scared. What if I tell him and he only wants to be friends? What if he laughs? When I talk to him, I feel sane, happy, nervous and a bunch of other things. I wish I had the courage to tell you how I feel.

So, its been

awhile.
I have so much to say. But, I wont say anythign really. I made this really big mistake which I hate so much. There isn't anything I can do about it. I tried, but it's like beating a dead horse. Can't do anything about it. I'm just going to have to sit around and wait to see what she's going to do. I'm really hoping that ashley can find it in heart to forgive me for what i've done to her.

happyness

you totally just made my day but coming through my till. i was hoping you would know that..

i like the sound of your voice(like a whole lot). i also like you arms for some reason, well and your smile too. : )

i wish you would ask me out


rawr!

cant help

i cant help your still all i think of..i think i falling for you but you dont know..


but its going to be the same story for me..

which hurts.

.

i dont know why..but i cant stop thinking about you. your all i think of now. i cant even talk to you because im so embarrassed. that friday night...i usually dont drink that much or that fast for the matter of fact...now i cant even look at you..never mind thats a lie. thats i all i can do.





i heard this rumour..well it might true i dont know but then again you never know......but i heard from a friend who was there when you said it

You're Not Sorry-Taylor Swift

I cant stop listening to this song. Its really good. I'm listening to the C.S.I version of it.

All This Time I Was Wasting Hoping 

You Would Come Around. 

I've Been Giving Out Chances Every Time and 

All You Do Is Let Me Down. 
And It's Taken Me This Long Baby, 

But I Figured You Out. 

And Your Thinking We'll Be Fine Again 

But Not This Time Around.

You Don't Have to Call, Anymore. 
I Won't Pick Up The Phone. 

This Is The Last Straw. 
Don't Wanna Hurt Anymore.
And You Can Tell Me That Your Sorry 

But I Don't Believe You Baby Like I Did Before.
Your Not Sorry. Oh, no. no..

Your Looking So Innocent.
I Might Believe You If I Didn't Know. 
Could Of Loved You All My Life 

If You Hadn't Left Me Waiting In The Cold.
And You Got Your Share Of Secrets

And I'm Tired Of Being Last to Know.

And Now Your Asking Me To Listen, 

Cause It's Worked Each Time Before.

But You Don't Have to Call, Anymore. 
I Won't Pick Up The Phone. 

This Is The Last Straw. 

Don't Wanna Hurt Anymore.
And You Can Tell Me That Your Sorry 

But I Don't Believe You Baby Like I Did Before.
Your Not Sorry. Oh, no. no..

You Had Me Crawling For You Hunny

 And It Never Would Of Gone Away, No.
You Used To Shine So Bright But I Watched All Of It Fade.

So You Don't Have to Call Anymore.
I Won't Pick Up The Phone. 

This Is The Last Straw. 
There's Nothing Left To Beg For.
And You Can Tell Me That Your Sorry 

But I Don't Believe You Baby Like I Did Before.

Your Not Sorry. No, No, Oh.
Your Not Sorry. No, No, Oh..

Suprised

well this was like a total shocker to me. first didnt think he would accept. second cause i really didnt think he would accept. your probably wondering what right?? i sent a myspace invite to my biological dad and he ACCPETED it. im in total shock right no i dont know what to think and its driving me crazy cause i have to leave for work soon. yikes!! hopefully i can get my thoughts together before work.

...

it hurt when i found out you have a girlfriend. i dont know why. i dont want to hurt but  am and i dont like it.  i shoud have talked to you about it and i will but  couldnt at the ime with out being mean or yeahh

Why?

i dont get it why me?? why does notrhing ever go the right way for me?? why does a guy have to be such a loser....and why cant i get anything right??

206 Days

Its been 206 days since I last wrote on my blog....
Well in 206 days I switched from service clerk to cashier.
I turned 16 & got my L. I went to Olympia & saw S for her birthday & also to go shopping.
I stopped liking R & started to like C & C. Who both are from work.
Also read many books including Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse & Breaking Dawn. Watched many good movies.
Hung out with Leah Tanner.
I went to my lovely sister's wedding gained a brother & niece.
Got my lip pierced......which didn't hurt at all.
Had three Christmas Dinner's.
Got a wonderful raise : D
And asked out C.


There was alot more than that but its early in the morning and I can't think..

So yeah

I cant wait for a number of things and the top 2 are Steph coming down to visit & my 16th birthdayy because I can go for my L which I should be studying for.

The other stuff I can't wait for is my lovely older sister Leaha Louie to move back home only for a little while but atleast I can see her more often before she moves t the states : (.

yikes!!!

i acciendtly scratched gta 4 pretty badly and now it wont wrok need to get it asap

is.

im so mad just cause i walked away from you not my little sister doesnt mean you can not let me see her. you freaking wh***.

Another thought.

Am I closing myself out or am I pushing away? I don't have the feeling of wanting to talk to anyone and that I feel safer not talking to anyone. Then I don't have to worry about what they think.

I will not be another drop-out.

I am going to try everything I can to pass mt last two classes

Thanks for ruining my life

i hate that you only talk to my brother.i guess you really didnt want a daughter just sons just do that they can be just fucking like you. you dont know much im disgusted by you i atleast thought you woud try but no your not and if you ever read this i wanted to have a relationship with you not that i feel ready too but you dont so saty the hell out of my life.

...

What is home?
“A roof to keep out the rain?
Four walls to keep out the wind?
Floors to keep out the cold?
Yes, but home is more than that.
It is the laugh of a baby,
the song of a mother,
the strength of a father,
warmth of loving hearts,
lights from happy eyes,kindness, loyalty, comradeship.
Home is first school and first church for young ones,
where they learn what is right, what is good, and what is kind,
where they go for comfort
when they are hurt or sick;
where joy is shared and sorrow eased;
where fathers and mothers are respected and loved,
where children are wanted;
where the simplest food is good enough for kings because it is earned;
where money is not as important as loving-kindness;
where even the tea kettle sings from happiness.
That is home. God bless it!”

- Anon.

its been awhile..

i miss U.S alot and i will never get to see him what made me be reminded U.S by was some post on my funwall by myself on my other account and i started to miss him and then i started crying because i know i will never get to see him again. i wish that i could spend one more day with U.S. i would just about give anything to get to spend just one more day with U.S.

I dont like doing to this to myself bu i dont know what else to do he was family and

its hard to lose a family member

An ordinary day

Today was somewhat weird I guess. In planning nothing special. in science i finally found out my test score which was really bad i passed with only 2 grrr.... In spanish i had a test/quiz which i know i failed and in p.e. i had to run 6 laps grrr...... and now i have nothing to do *sigh*

Finally

i finally got to see leaHa yesterday know today i get to see shayLa haha so happy havent seen her in over week.lasttime i saw it was the last sunday of spring break. so very happy =] =] =]